Have you ever asked yourself, “Does my life full of attachments?”
Do you like attachments in your life? Do you think that as heavy weight things that you have to carry? How can you get a relief from that? What can you do to solve this?
Yesterday I watched a movie named Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter, and Spring. This Korean movie was really touching me. There was a young boy, a monk, fooled around with animals (fish, frog, and snake). He tied the animals with rocks, so that those could not move easily. His teacher actually watched for what he had done, and he gave this boy a punishment. He’s being attached with rocks, so that he could feel what those animals felt.
Later on, the teacher asked him to release the animals, but unfortunately some of the animals are dead. At that time, the boy cried … he regretted for what he had done. And, from that time, he never did that again.
Time goes by, the boy became a man, he is young, energetic, and naïve. One day, one girl came there to stay in the temple that this monk and teacher stayed. Actually, the temple itself is a small temple in the center of a lake, in the middle of nowhere. It’s far from anywhere.
This girl had a problem, she was so stressed, and she tried to stay in the temple to get her spirit back. It worked!! But, not by she did prayers, meditation or something like that. She hooked up with the young monk. They felt in love, they did unbearable things, until the teacher knew that the young monk had broken some rules.
The teacher asked the girl to leave, because he thought it’s helpless for her to stay, beside she already felt much better from her stress. The young monk disagreed, but the teacher insisted, so the girl left.
And one summer night, this young monk, burned with his desired and love, he fled away. He thought about his lover, his attachment of life. He couldn’t again resist the biggest temptation, to have a possession, ownership. He was attached to the girl, as he couldn’t stop thinking of her. So, in one night…. He left the old monk, to capture his love.
Summer changed to autumn … and time passed by. One day, this young monk came back to see his teacher. He did a sin, he killed his lover because he couldn’t stop his jealousy of her being with another guy. He thought that, naively, she were attached to him as well, but man’s desire could always change.
Ok .. the story still continue, but I will cut here.
I want to tell about my story here in Abu Dhabi. Since I will finish my working contract here, I prepare to leave the Emirates. But, now, I am attached for something that I wish I can be unattached as soon as possible. I know it is out of my control, since the attachment that I have are dependent to the successful of future project that I have worked for.
I feel awful lately, I feel that due to someone other’s problem, I have to bear the risk of this attachment as well. I was angry, pissed off, and honestly, I complained a lot. I know that this can be done too, but the time to be consumed make me feel that .. I’m going to stay longer in Abu Dhabi
I don’t want to make it a long story, so …. Cut the story off, right now, I am still in that ‘attachment mode’, and trying hard to finish all of things, so I really wish that I can go home to Indonesia immediately.
Well, I do have some doubts about attachments. I believe that everyone has something that becomes ‘addition’ to their life. Surely everyone always has this all the time, and it sometimes puts away your mind and energy.
Hmmm .. right now .. I just wish that I’m back there in Indonesia … let my wish come true.
